Carrots Tsubaki ft Tsubaki

Shortly after I started dressing up as a woman some years ago, I begin interacting with like minded community. I needed a feminine name for my female persona. Without hesitation, I selected “Tsubaki”. When other sisters asked me why I selected this name, I simply told them that it’s the brand name of the shampoo that I’m using. That is so far from reality.

Many years ago, as I was scouring the net for photos of cute looking gals (just like billions of other straight males), I chanced upon a photo of an incredibly cute looking girl. While there are millions of photos of cute looking girls circulating the internet, this girl’s looks far surpasses every single one of them.

I became super obsessed with her. I spent several hours trawling the internet in search of any news related to her. I believe I may have been one of her biggest fans…..or perhaps biggest internet stalker!

It turns out that she was an incredibly popular Junior Idol several years ago. For the uninitiated, the line between Japan Junior Idol industry and child pornography is razor thin. Scores of her scantily cladded photos and videos during her junior idol days can be found on the internet. I kept wondering what led the cutest looking girl in the world to pursue this controversial path at such a young age. Upon more research, I found that she stopped being a junior idol after 4 years. 

After stepping away from the limelight, the amount of fresh news about her on the internet plummeted. But I somehow managed to find her twitter account. I read her twitter posts through the translation functions and found that she seemed to be unhappy about certain posts that others made about her. She eventually joined a photo beauty contest for senior high school girls in her prefecture. Below is the photo of herself that she submitted to the panel of judges. Unfortunately she did not manage to get into the finals. I personally think that she is incredibly beautiful in the photo. If she bothered to get professional help to style her hair for the photoshoot, she would her beaten all her competition by a mile!

After her studies, she moved to Vietnam. My guess is that one of her parents had to work in Vietnam for a period of time. She posted several photos with her face blurred off or hidden behind sunglasses or app icons or heavily filtered. Why did she deliberately masked off her appearance from her public posts? Did she want to prevent online haters from making malicious comments about her? In many of the videos of herself that she uploaded, she seemed to be rather sad. I’m not certain why. Did she regret being a junior idol. Was she ashamed of her provocative photos and videos that are still in circulation in public? Around 2 years ago during the height of the pandemic, she stopped posting twitter messages. Since then I’ve not seen any other new posts or information about her.

Then around 1 year ago, as I once again tried to search for her latest news on the internet, I saw something that enraged me. Someone took a voyeur video of her on the train. I believe it happened during her senior high school days. That despicable jerk followed her out of the train and took an upskirt video of her as she walked along the train platform and up the stairs of the train station. The public comments about her were mixed. Many commented about how pretty she looks. But there are others who called her “Chipmunk face”. Someone managed to identify her as the former Junior Super Idol and lamented about how her looks have deteriorated since the peak of her popularity. Most perverts probably wanked off after they caught sight of her panty in the video. 😡😡

I still think she looked incredibly beautiful even in that insidious video. I often fantasise about what I would have done if I had her looks. That is why I decided to name my female persona after her junior idol last name. I added “Carrots” in front of it because of my love for vegetables.